Attempts

I have been really interested with photography lately and I also proved that I have limited or seemingly zero talent to actually do it. I kill time at home browsing through photos in flickr and it really pushes me to take that single shot that I can say I am proud of. Here I am again, overthinking. I plan to enroll on some photography workshops if I can actually afford it. I think I am finally doing something good with my money hehe, but still, it’s unnecessary.

Here’s a list of things I did (at least those that I can remember), office news, and other random crappy information that will not interest you the least so stop reading:

1. Transformers is one of the two best movies I have seen this year (300 being the other one). I have also seen F4: ROTSS and I liked it better than the first one. I missed Pirates and Ocean’s 13.
2. I want to buy myself an action figure of Jazz, Bumblebee and Blackout; a cheap SLR (if in case I will sign up for a photog workshop, ugh mafeeling); a Flickr pro account.
3. One of the few people I really talk to in the office has already left for Cebu. Our company had a new site in Cebu and she was one of the first persons to be assigned there. She texted me a while ago informing me of their crappy house. Hehe. Good luck. Murder?
4. My gym membership has expired. It’s time to gain the pounds I lost in a year in a few fucking weeks.
5. I am craving a 2-pc spicy Jollibee chicken right now (thigh part please).

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lost highway

I just finished downloading Bon Jovi’s Lost Highway (which sounds like country by the way).

Over the weekend, I started on some “selective colorization” works (inspired by frances). Hehe. I will upload them soon, which reminds me that our DSL sucks because I can’t upload any image, so I would have to do the uploading somewhere else.

Anyway, my PC crashed last night and I had to reformat then reinstall the OS. It took me four hours to install most of my “applications”.

That is it for now. Will. Post. Something. Soon.

keep moving forward

I watched Meet the Robinsons yesterday with a couple of friends. What do you say? It was a surprisingly good movie! I personally liked it better than Shrek, seriously. Pag dating kong bahay dinownload ko agad ung soundtrack. I also wanted to adopt Goob.

Anyway, I have been idly browsing through the list of winners of the Webby Awards and Jonathan Yuen totally deserved his award.

everthing?!

I just noticed that I spelled “everything” wrong in my page’s title.

I am currently chatting with my cousin, Lyra, who is London.

just lying

Under the mango tree, taking an after-lunch nap while one of my uncles talks about how difficult their childhood days were. True, we’ve been living in much comfort now than they were when they were kids. It’s hard to think how life hasn’t been so easy for my parents before. With their endless sacrifices that still continues up to now, we now live in a much more comfortable life, not with lots of money, but with lots of things to be thankful for.

dagdag na lang kayo 20, traffic e

 

Shut

There comes a time, as most things do, when you want to shut out just everything from your life. Not that you want to be dead, you just want to live as you wish: free and unbothered. I really feel like everything in my life is failing.

Work. I am just too tired. No matter how much I work, I can’t feel I have done something. There is no sense of accomplishment at the end of the day. I come in everyday to do the same thing I did yesterday. Maybe my problem was I can’t tell where the task ends, and I think everything is the one whole thing. And if there’s no dot to end that one whole thing, then nothing’s accomplished. Sometimes I am deep in thoughts of voidness, which is probably my largest distraction.

Love. I just don’t care. Or I am too scared to care. Or I don’t know how I really feel towards it, which is equally scary. I am not looking. I keep thinking I’m still young. I plan to marry at 28, 29… 30 at the latest. Maybe I should start looking. How? I don’t know how to look. The last time I had it, it found me. I never looked for it. I miss the idea of having someone to care for. I miss the times when I would remind somebody how much I feel for her. I miss the evenings when I would be thinking where we should have lunch the next day. I miss the times when I would hug somebody and I would cry without any reason.  I miss the times we sleep together. I miss the kiss. I am missing a best friend. Yes, maybe it’s time I go looking for it.

peace is color blue

I was waiting for a ride to town in a waiting shed in front of my Uncle’s house. It was a Sunday. Two days before that day, I came home to attend a family reunion hosted by us. And on that day, on that Sunday, I had to go back to Manila.

This is a daily view. You can absolutely feel peace whenever you are there, away from work, away from stress, away from Manila’s invisible deadly gases.

last night

Yesterday was my officemate’s last day in the office. We had dinner at Rack’s El Pueblo here in Ortigas. She was one of my closest non-racist (hehe) friends.After dinner, I know we talked about a lot of things but all I can remember is how I realized just how normal “imperfect” families are, that the mention of the word “kiss” can be categorized as too-much-info, that roasted animal parts looked like random human body parts of a suicide bomber. I also learned that something labeled “spicy” can be really spicy.

It was a happy dinner, not that I was expecting some sad farewells because I know that we will definitely have one of these dinners again.